.the gurl.

.maizatul husna ishak_
.mai_
.husna_
.baby_
.sweet seventeen [to be]_
.friendly_
.strong character_
.always earns what she works hard for_
.social bird._
.30.11.1989_
.QPS_qionan pri.ADPS_admiralty pri.AISS_ahmad ibrahim sec.NYP_nanyang poly_
.School of IT_Diploma in IT_
.NCC(Sea) Cadet Leiutenant_
.Drama of Malay Cultural Group_Pusaka Seni_
.Newbie in NYP Silat Team_
.Assyafaah Youth_

History

.Staff SGT of AISS NCC(Sea) unit .2005._
.Part A Platoon SGT .2005._
.GPA finalist .2005._
.Student council .2005._
.Metro sales associate .012005 to 032005._
.Pure Yoga flyer distributor .lol. .012005._
.more achievements i forgot... lol_

.whines for.

~~havanas sandals~~
~~ripples slippers~~
~~buy mum baju raya~~
mary-janes
pass 1106
another new phone
more money
my camera back
capsleeve
~~those dresses from Bugis~~
~~those tops from Bugis~~
~~make sumone's life beautiful~~
my frenz 2 b happy

.my luvers.

.afHam_
.ain_
.ammarah_
.amireaux_
.aniza_
.azli aka abgmeow_
.azlina_
.biSkuT adeQku_
.dil_
.dina_
.dindevil_
.dya_
.eeduh_
.eja_
.elana_
.elfi aka PrinceofCharms_
.eliaNa_
.emman sufiyann_
.fandi_
.firdaus aka fyre_
.hidayat aka yayat_
.hisyam_
.jannah aka ham2_
.jewelry aka doraemon_
.jing chuan_
.joNatHan_
.kahwei aka shane_
.kak sue_
.khuswandy aka kuZzo uno_
.mardia_
.mR franC_
.naNa_
.nasir_
.nicholas aka sid_
.nizal_
.raFiE
.ramdHan_
.sarah_
.serene aka da jie_
.sHahaNa aka nana_
.sHaiDa_
.suLina_
.siyu aka dead fish_
.syazwan_
.tarmidzie_
.wak_
.wanie aka kucing_
.wirna asyura_
.yadBlog_
.yadPoems_
.zahidah_

noticeme`-
.AISS nccsea_
.andayu_
.hqnccsea_
.NCC_
.NYP NCC_
.NYP Silat_
.SITinspirations_
.youtube_

.~~stop~~ whining.

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Wednesday, May 31, 2006

im insulted. time n again. juz as the moment i stepped in my hm, insults came shooting at me..

bt i guess i feel better now.
thanks 2 serene, nicholas, hazhim, marni. i love u guys. thkz 4 caring!

sum pics...

its us!

Frenz?

12:28 AM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Tuesday, May 30, 2006

4:55 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Monday, May 29, 2006

ok so, woke up, went to sch. settled on another style of clothes 2dae. haha.
same old mondays, fite bein picked.
had marketing makeup tutorial at business school. met khai n isa along the way 2 fetch felicia n elena bt end up, they could find their way. khai, worked in de afternn, such a bore. nvm, 2mr gt drama, can mit him n talk. isa, wearing pink top.he looks nice in pink ah seriously. veri cool guy.

then went home alone! hmmph. decided 2 go down at yishun to take 858 home bt was so sleepy dat i missed the yishun stop!too sleepy i guess. it was so hot! how can one take bus from adm mrt stn n still need 2 walk for 10mins home after dat? mite as well i take 858 which stops bhind my blk n need 2 walk 3 mins onli. bt heck, i missed the yishun stop coz too sleepy.

so, decided to stop at wdls instead of adm so dat i could sleep in de bus. longer. more stops n longer time 2 sleep. along de way down from de platform to the ticketing machine, i met asraf! taadaa! haha. i was shocked n he was too. in de same train bt didnt realise. so walked to the interchange wif him. bt we parted soon since we were not taking de same bus. asraf is my former sch mate. he is a nice guy. juz chatted wif him online juz now.

so, reached home, my mum asked me whether i wanna eat, i said yes, n i changed out n went 2 sleep. lol.this time, she din wake me up 2 eat. but, when i awaken, she said "the food soo cold oreadyy... so cold.. so cold u noe" haha. she must b mad at me 4 nt eatin. lol.

so, woke up, ate, changed out n headed 4 sch again 4 silat. dropped by MCG room awhile juz now. went 4 silat. was so geared up. made lame remarks. haha. was so crazy wif de silat team 2day. dunno y. oh well.

went home n met elfi, wirna n aameer along the way. took de train home. smsed Him, rest, n here i m. once again. hehehe.

btw, silat n pusaka seni rocks!!!

~mai~

11:59 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Sunday, May 28, 2006

to nic, sorry la. kidding. dun take it to heart.

k so, yeah i had 2 weeks of hell la. bt, i tink its resolved now. i juz needed a wake up call to b strong n continue being de strong mai who wont allow challenges 2 bring her down.

i tink its thkz 2 kak sue ah. she gave me a testi which reali made me wake up. n remembering dat time when i went rock climbing n de person said i didnt noe de meaning of tiredness n always wanna try n try n try to climb every wall complete.

so yeah, IM WIDE AWAKE...

n my weeks of siaoness ended well ah. sort off actualie. till i realise de real real situation im facing. hmm.

two two two.

"i feel like killing u! grr"...

"thkz 4 opening up ah"...

~mai~

8:33 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Friday, May 26, 2006

im gonna kill fadullah, provided he dun gif back my hp as usuable as it can b.

haiz, bt thkz ah, 4 readily sending it 2 Nokia.

oh well, had seni trg juz now. damn tired siaa. seni is hard 2 muster. u need strength, determination n patience. haha. olahraga is damn free, comfy n aggresive. de 2 sides of silat, malay martial art.

NICHOLAS NEEDS 2 WAKE UP N FACE DE FACTS. heee heee. blueks. *slaps*
ONCE AGAIN, U R DENYING DE FACTSSS.

~mielaydee~

11:24 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

its like fuck. i didnt do anytin wrong n like the world is ignoring me. FUCK. let me repeat.

ergh. this sucks la. im torn, stuck n interrupted! damn la. i dont feel like going to classes. bt bcoz of de trust of my mum, the love of my mum and de determination deeep deeep down sumwhere but lost inside me now, i go on goind 4 classes. tho im like a zombie.

its either i shut up, or make noise. i choose silence. to confine de hurt in my hurt.

~mielaydee~

11:47 AM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Thursday, May 25, 2006

went 2 sch in no.4. then IMT at nee soon camp. not pasir labar. ergh. too bad.

then elfi smsed to go 4 a movie. x-men3. was damn worth watching. thkz elfi. mwaah!!!~ bcoz of u, i found my life partner. hehe. de hunky Angel. im salivating siaa! his body is like, so muscular, in proportion n juz nice 4 me. unlike nicholas, de self-proclaimed 6 packs guy. bt hey boy, i aint see anytin on ur tummy. juz dat its flat. wuhahah! i found my life partner. lalala. anyway, de movie has a damn interesting story-line n de effects... damn nice!!! it made my mouth wide-opened.

n so, went home n bathed n here i am.

some highlights of de IMT, TKSS did quite well... they had a lot of passes. PHS not bad either. tho sum did a re-shoot. bt, keep it up! keep livin up de standard of sea cadets! NCC all the way~!

k, due 2 wanie's request, here it is. this neighbour of mine, at lvl 2, his house is like facing de opp side of my block. imagine, my block is like a canadian bull shape. a house wifout de roof liddat. a C shape. so, he saw at de 7th level, which is a level above me, outside this house he saw THAT woman. n if i dun draw de curtains, i can see de view lor. lol.

then my mum did story dat she saw a penanggal before. first time when i asked she merely nodded. second time she said ppl tell her. obviosly she dun wanna tell me. she said actualie, de penanggal, when it moves in de air with its entrails, will kind of jump jump in de air liddaT. and de entrails r on fire. kind of glowing wif fire liddat. how my mum could see or even noe? bcoz she grew up in a kampong in m'sia. n yeah, it is scary at nite. a few yrs back ah. bt now, juz across which used 2 b a damn BIG padi field, they built housings there. sum terraces. so, now quite bright. that's y can hang out outside at nite wif my cousins.

k then, once, when my dad was working at nite, my mum slept alone in her room ah. then at one time, she kind of woke up a lil as she felt as if my dad entered de room n put his watch n money on top of de tv in their room. she realli saw my dad lei. then enter de toilet. then after a while, she thought back... my dad is working nite shift! how can he b home at nite?! so, usuali when my dad is nite shift, i sleep wif her in de living room. another one, was when my dad was sleepin bside her, then suddenly she felt awake n smell sumtin so sweet smelling, jasmine flower liddat arh. bt my dad was asleep. so she woke up n zikir ah. zikir is sumtin like chanting Allah's names la, for those who dunnoe. n then after a while... the smell went away.

k, another last story, 4 2nite ah. other days i story more ghost stories. erm last one, was i experience wif my dad ah. we were both watching tv at nite. arnd 10 plus i tink. then suddenly we heard like sumone playing our door-flap. my grill door dun use a door knob bt a door flap. a flat one which will sound irritating if pulled n let go continuedly. we tot was not ours. bt the more we ignore, the faster it was n more noisy it was. then my dad n me went 2 check it out lor. we went to see from de side window. the sound continued bt we could see nutin. when i looked thru de peephole oso nutin. then i panicked, i juz ignore n sat down. then, it stop suddenly. then after a few mins, it started again siaa. then in de end we ignored...

ok, more ghost stories in next entries. toodle doo~

~mielaydee~

11:26 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Wednesday, May 24, 2006

damn la. my day ending bad now. ergh. y cant he juz like say sorry n all n all. n stop giving all sorts of excuses everytime i say sumtin abt him or wad.

im like so binget. binget binget binget.

eh, btw, de incredible tales 2nite was gerekk!!! i tink de most scariest. more scary then the previous malay ghost called de penunggu. fun fun fun. i mean scary scary scary.

n mum told me abt sumtin near my house. again, my instinct told me true. coz my window faced this certain area. n i always cover my window full from that view. my gosh. such instinct.

~mielaydee~

11:32 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

sch at 9am. ended at 12pm. to make it short. met huiqi at the mrt stn. we decided 2 drop by at our old workplace, MEtro. haha.

met kak liza, jun han n ah hong. the place changed. so has my point of view. saw a few other ppl. met wif de osim guy. i 4got his name now, shit, im forgetting their names one by one. met this cute guy. who is cool! he can play cool tricks wif de yoyo. he is in de 'fast challenge' crew. cool huh? i wanna buy de yoyo ah. so long nvr play. i wanna refresh back my tricks. asked mum juz now, she kept quiet. dunnoe can onot. it costs, ermz, $18.90 hehe. im lazy 2 use my own money la. since my dad said he could support me. heheh. evil me.

ok so. went out 4 a looooong walk wif mum. from home to admiralty mrt stn. saw dad brisk walking along the way. haha. weird. went 2 de market there. its boring in de afternoon. bt nice in de morning. dunoe y. then mum paid her bill at 7-11. then we headed home by-passing this bridge n bought bubble tea. so ex!

along the way all the way we chatted abt our family, k, my dad's side of family, our relatives n all. haha. k. stomach bloated both of us kept burping. too much drink in our stomach. haha!

went to wdls mart 4 a while. then strait home. n my sore throat has worsen. ergh.

cant sing. thiz suckz. reminder=2mr, imt at pasir labar camp. wear no.4 to sch. damn hot siiaa!

~mielaydee~

8:21 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

k, so i lied. i went 4 MCG. tho im like so sick. haha. bt din reali get the feeling of de trg coz reali din haf de mood.

ok so, im mad wif khai. yes! im mad wif u. so angry. errgh. i dunot wish 2 say why. bcoz im juz too angry again. my limit of anger towards him is like tooo much over. its like, he is always doin it again n again n i 4give him time n again. bt this time, i dunoe la hor.

so, went home alone, wif ayu n aminah who dropped at khatib. then got a seat. at 12 o'clock i saw an ITE guy ah. assume he was from soccer training as a big bag dat u usuali bring 2 balek kampong is with him aside from his sch bag. bside him, sat a fren. who i couldnt see as a person is standing in btwn us, blocking each other's view.

k so, at yishun, dat person went down. plus that ITE guy. n taaadaaa... right in front of my eyes, a guy who look damn familiar to me. k la, i presume he lives arnd my area. n so, he looked at me too like he knows me. k, connection established. haha.

bt too bad, 2 mins later, another person came n block us. haha. bt then at sembawang, he got a seat. awkwardly, we were like lookin at other places rather then front all the way 2 admiralty. n he could even suddenly b sleeping at a time. haha. obviously dun wanna stare mah.

k so, we both went down at admiralty. he walked slower. he was on the phone. n we both took de same bus home. n when we dropped at de same bus stop, i took de opp way to walk home. shit la. shld haf taken de same route as him. i haf 2 routes. n his way is nearer. haha.

n so, after dropping, we walked pass each other n... taaadaa... he looked at me. until we were at our blindspots. wuhahaha. n i dunoe y, i suddenly smiled 2 myself. hahaha!

k, idiiot me. im typing this coz i duno wad else 2 type... n... bcoz i feel dat its sumtin dat i would want 2 read in my archives in de future. haha. so dat i will haf a nice memory 2 remember n a good laugh.

falling sick

~mielaydee~

12:18 AM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Tuesday, May 23, 2006

woke up wif a heavy head, bland throat and a stucked nose.

cleared my nose first thing in the toilet. haha. then bathed 4 awhile. changed into jeans n white polo tee. no mood 2 reali choose clothes 2 wear. suddenly when i went out of my room my dad said "i want to send u to school. i wanna see ur canteen"

haha. i was blurr like sotong dat time. then i said ok lor. so, took de bike to sch. such a long journey. so boring. take train atleast can see alot of sceneries n busy ppl walking. take de bike n u can onli see de road, trees n other vehicles. my dad went in from de back way. bhind the sports sch way.

reached sch, went to canteen, bought wedges n then dad wanted 2 see my sch n de lecture theatres. too bad he couldnt see the tutorial rooms. then waited outside 4 my clsmates. den said bye 2 dad n went in. so sick 2dae. cant even breath properly. lol.

n now, bcoz there isnt any marketing tutorial, we r in de library again... listening to unforgivable sinner by lene marlin now. damn nice... =)

m not going 4 MCG today. so sick. mayb not running during silat 2mr too. juz doin less vigorous activites. i wanna train 4 seni... hope we can do it yana n ain!!! ;)

~mielaydee~

1:23 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Monday, May 22, 2006

went to sch 2dae. went out of my house early todayy...

today de tutorial! walao0! was bombarded again! grrr... @#%$@%! then went 2 south canteen to eat awhile coz got enuff time b4 maths lecture. then went for maths lecture. then ate the oily oh so oily nasi lemak. then went home. alone. reached home. stayed at home alone.

i bathed for like 45 mins!!! the weather was so damn hot. i was havin rashes. then went 2 sleep while online. mum came home, cook n ask me 2 wake up n eat! again! haha. bt i didn. i woke up anrd 3.30pm. ate, changed, watched tv n went out of de house at 5.10pm. it was raining heavily then. haha.

went 2 sch. was takin my time. walking slowly. to de silat club room. learned regu putri 4 martial arts day. hope we can perform. if not, then onli do de buangan(throws). i wanna do the regu putri. so nice ah... hope me, ain n yana can coordinate. =)

ended n went home wif azrie, azli, ayul, hykel, yana n ain!!! =) took same train as ayul. chat bt mostly silence. so tired mah. n he called me when i was waiting 4 de lift up home. awww. i miss him. chatted awhile, rest first n called him back. chatted awhile. quite sum sad news from him ah. =( so here i m, blogging n still smelly. im gonna bath now.

tartarz~

~mielaydee~

11:06 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Sunday, May 21, 2006

todayy... woke up at 7.15 wif dad in my ears again...
"tell me wad time u wanna wake up 4 ur religious class?"
hmmph! so i had 2 shut up, wake up, bath n get ready. could hardly walk properly. my whole body aching, the aftermath of silat. hmm. took de bus. waited 4 syuaidah as usual at my aunt's small shop in de mosque.

so sleeepppy! haha. next week is my religious class exam. 2 subjects. yawn. hope i can pass wifout studying. haha. de knowledge in my heart n mind mahh...

din go home strait. my 2 aunties brought me 2 fork n spoon n treated me lunch there. near my house mah. haha. ate fishball noodles, drank ice lemon tea n ate 2 pieces of bbq chicken wings. n im pregnant! walaoo.so much 4 losing weight during silaT!

went home, slept. haha. while still online on msn. ruzaini pm-ed me n i scolded him 4 disturbing my sleep. which was stupid bcoz i slept bside my lappy. lol.

so i woke up when my parents came home from maulid at omar salmah mosque.
"wake up wake up. haf u slept long enough? if yes, go eat de nasi briyani!" said mum.
my mum, who is typically always asking me 2 eat if im asleep. i dunnoe y. lol! atleast she cares.

i woke up, din eat, changed n went out jogging. wif spinach in my backpack, my body n me... haha. spinach 4 my cousin. so i jogged 15mins over 2 her house, pass her de spinach, asked her about big walk, looked at my nephew's overloaded hp bills! haha. drank, took a pau n went out at 6.45pm. her house is near this park wif stationary 'gym' machines. thkz PAP. haha. so, i did sum of de stations, tried de monkey bar. seems like i reali need 2 build my biceps back! weak weak weak. wad is happening 2 me.

reached home arnd 7.10pm. cooled down. rest. bathed. imagine, i went in the bathroom at 7.15pm n went out at 7.50pm. =) cheerios.

i feel healthier now. haha. like my heart is happy im excercising n my limbs are saying "yeay!!! we r moving atlast!" my tummy saying, "i dun wanna b pregnant wifout an orgasm." n my butt saying," i wish 2 bcome smaller." hehe.

~mielaydee~

9:13 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Saturday, May 20, 2006

hmm. woke up at 8.30 with my bro rubbing his F-ing leg on my hair. walaoo. pissed me off man. i feel like crying. n my mum din do anytin abt it. as usual.dad came home at 9am n talked 2 bro abt buying a bike laa. n all. hmmph. haf bike big F meh? im nt jealous of u. u r jealous dat i haf my own laptop n i noe u want the money spent on my laptop to b spent 4 ur bike. pls la hor... this laptop is using my own money. my HARDEARNED money. i work my assed off 4 3mths olrryte. unlike you, pemalas. NS oso CD clerk. shame man... even i, a gerl m better than u!

in de end, i decided 2 go for silat. really wake up at 9am. bathed n went out. not much talking. since i rather keep quiet when im angry. smsed rafie 2 go together. met kak dia, yana n ain in the train. which thereafter saw rafie in de next cabin. haha. yana n ain waited 4 shikin at the mrt stn. so me, rafie n kak dia walked first. met danial along the way n we went 2gether.

started late again. by de time we reached at silat room at 10.20, there was only azrie, dina dani, n kak shu. hmmm...

btw, met abg ayul when were enterin de sch gate. haha. abg ayul, if u r reading this, my blog is emo bcoz it shows my emo side which i keep away from ppl. instead of talking, i type.

trg started. ok, they say i improved. ok la. bt atiqah wasnt strong enough to carry my legs. bt, reali, i could do it oready. then learnt sapuan. quite nice. i love it. i love buangan n sapuan. haha. i wanna learn de nike buangan ahh. was quite focus on the trg. thkz 2 silat, it eased my mind...

bt in de end, i still haf 2 come home. hmmph.

im sorry mum. i hate staying at home when there's the 2 guys at home...

~mielaydee~

4:51 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Friday, May 19, 2006

i never changed and i do not have a sluttish side of myself!

reallie... why u say liddat abt ur bigger sis siaa? ishk. tsk tsk tsk. i noe i haf changed alot in the outside. my hair, looks and all. but im still mai u noe... im still the to0 over frenly mai... the noisy n bubbly gurl. sarcastic and blur at times. smart but idiotic at the same time. haha! lol. im still the joker of Metro ok!

no, i dun feel lonely when all my frenz go n talk 2 their own girlfrenz/boifrenz and leave me alone. i like bein alone at times. its juz better alone sumtimes.

hmm... i still miss kak faizah alot. waiting 4 her 2 contact me. 4got 2 ask her bf number the other day. she took my number n stored it in her bf's hp but i din take his number. haha.

i met her at admiralty mrt stn and so we walked all the way to the coffee shop near my house wif her bf n our fren. yesterday it was. i still cant 4get her eyes.. he caring smile.. i wish she was my sister... i will always cry when i wanna leave her. we can hug n never let go... i feel to0o attached 2 herrr.

im sleepy. bt as usual, i cant sleep. n im not goin 4 silat 2mr. i nid 2 study. read up on maths. the lectures dat i wasted my time on not listening, underdstanding java... n tryinnna noe how 2 realli do tables for webpages.

sumhow... i realli miss u now...

~mielaydee~

11:57 PM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

yawn. at de NYP lib now. bored la. din bring my notebk 2dae. to0 heavy. n i haf another full day 2day. haiiz. end at 5pm. most prolly goin 2 AISS for ncc sea trg. if they r havin any. haha.

vinston seems so0o0o restless today. wonder wad's on his mind. (a penny for ur thoughts brudder)
kim ann is as crazy as usual.
johnathan is as sweet as usual...
jieming is as irritated by me as usual...
yagsi is as shuai ge as usual. ahaha.
jason is as game freak as usual... lol
syaipul is as cute as usual...
kahwei is as smiley as usual...
kenji as accentic as he can be...

the gurls... noisy as usual. discussing sum chi mag dat i dun tink im interested in. haha. sorry
charlene is as calm as usual....
jewel is as adorable like doraemon... teehee
elana is as ticklish as usual... laughing abt everytin...
michelle is as 'asthmatic' as usual to0.
wenfang is as cheerful wif JOY as usual...
siyu is as gorgeous as usual...

wondering...

where is our shuai ge nick wif jie jie... hahaha. mayb he stick to the gf dun want come back sch liao. teeeeheee.!

my cow brother ridwan... how is he handling the crutches. he said the doc is teaching him now. haha. he is such an attention seeker! idiot. haha.

hmmm... 2mr got silat trg. bt i feel tired. shld i go or just stay at home n rest? coz im so tired. i will cry myself to sleep...

reminder: live range on 22may. shld go. camp on 28 29. 30... MOS! ohryytety

~mielaydee~

11:37 AM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

so blo0dy tired. i can hardly move my hands. fingers can ah.

sch 4 de whole day. then CCA.

danced alot 2day. gua pancit. exhausted.

met apai on the train on my way home. walked out wif him. suddenly... KAK FAIZAH!!!

i miss her so much. so much.

then went home.

im sorrie. 2 tired 2 post la.

~mielaydee~

12:04 AM

~~::::mie~~laydee::::

Wednesday, May 17, 2006

today is my official pissed off day. haha.

and, i haf this ulcer on the left side of my tongue. my mum said it looks like it has pus inside! euuu.!
now i will baby talk even worse than i already am. ppl, frankly, i talk like an act cute person isit? hmm... anway, skipped silat today. so pancit la. n im not feeling well. n i oso feel so pissed off.

"ppl, y do u always make me angry?" -quote from abg elf.

had 2 games of bowling at grassroots with syaipul, denesh and mardhiah; a long time ncc mate. we were the sea gurls... haha! all my cadets days. hmm. i do miss them alot now. now that everyting is so real now. i wish i was still a kid. wif no seriousness abt life. all play n heck care. grow up mai! anway, de game was fun la. bt my 2nd game sucks. wasnt in focus. was thinking of sumtin. oh yah! b4 dat, met hong da along de way. he lo0ks so nerdy in sch. bt at werk, so damn charming. bai zhi! (idiot in mandarin)

then, went back to school to get my lappy from MCG room. had a discussion. haha. seriously, Dok was so0o0o darn cute. haha. i couldnt help smiling looking at him. n de way he talk. ppl, when u read this, pls dun misunderstand. haha! bt dun u guys tink so? everyone laughs looking at Dok. he is so cute. haha! then went off. home la.

so i dropped at yishun n took 858 home. met my cadet azhari. hmm. feels like he always never go for training. when ask abt training, he smoke anyhow. even tho i long time nvr come down, i noe la. no need 2 act gd in front of me n anyhow talk like u noe alot of things. i noe the difference btwn a gd cadet n a show off. oh well. i tink i'll b coming down 4 trg this fri right after school. i miss khus, ruz, tan, azmin, nura n de part As la... i feel like crying. i miss my babies!! they self-proclaim me as their mum. cute Part As. haahaa!

n so, reached home. sis was at home. MC 2 days. haha. n she said "nape?jealous kape?" being sick is boring man! it is de onli time i sleep well! haha. had a lo0ong chat wif mum over dinner and delicious mango! talked alot abt our relatives in m'sia. my mum's siblings and their children. i miss them alot to0! more n the most! i miss u nashreq! my onli-same-age-cousin. to0 bad everytime i msg him, it makes him top up his ppd card alot. i miss him so0 much. hope 2 go over 2 kluang n show him my laptop. 2 hp. haha. he will b darn jealous. n we can eat m'sia KFC again. yeahoo.

the nite has been ok. not a big quarrel wif bro 2nite. a small one onli. since my mum was arnd. bt i dun care. i juz scolded him SETAN n TOYOL. since he is botak, havin NS now. CD nyer clerk! wuahaha.

now need 2 do the powerpoint presentation 4 2mr's project presentation.

wow. i wrote alot today. adiozz...

~mielaydee~

8:59 PM

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Tuesday, May 16, 2006

nobody gonna love me better
i must stick wit forever
nobody gona take me higher
i must stick wit u

u noe how 2 appreciate me
i must stick wit u my baby
nobody ever make me feel this way
i must stick wit u...

todayyy... not much happened. sullen dayy. got my role as a bitch in the production 'pondok'. was fun. haha. now i noe how 2 b a bitch. haha. from past experiences... =) teehee

mayb gonna visit ridwan 2mr... okey dokey... adioz.

~mielaydee~

9:17 PM

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Monday, May 15, 2006

came to school late. this morning had a call, my uncle in m'sia passed away. my mother's elder brother. wanted 2 follow 2 see him 4 de last time, bt my mum asked me 2 go 2 school...

as usual, i had a bad 'premonition' juz a few mins before de call. i woke up at arnd 4am suddenly full of sweat. n the full of sweat was like i had juz finished running a marathon. even worse then when i exercised durin silat trg. even after switching on the fan, i still couldnt sleep. n then de phone rang... i heard my parents talking. my mum tried to wake me up. bt i pretended to b asleep. i dun wanna noe de news. but thoughts raced thru my mind... is it true dat wad i tink dat my uncle passed away? but couldnt be! my cousin's wedding is a few weeks more! when i woke up finally at 6am..., i was freezing cold n my nails were blue! hmmph. everytime this happens, i feel scared. i noe sumtin bad is happening. it happened 2 me alot of times... =(

anyway, came 2 school late wif a sullen mood. why do i haf this 'gift'?
reached school. late. n sumone kind of find fault wimme sia! haiiz. nvm.
then ridwan msged asking when we wanna come. haha. so i tot, y not today aite?
so, we reached his ward at 2pm! juz exactly after visiting hours! after we eat at long john 4 so long. haha. had talk wif him... pity him... awww.

then went home. ate like a pig. so hungry 4 rice! bt my sis cooking tasteless. lol. no offence. onli look nice but no taste. haha. n nvr cook properly. kind of raw. =p hahahaha!

_mielaydee; "not now perhaps..."

ridwan at TTSH. hahaz.

~mielaydee~

6:17 PM

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Saturday, May 13, 2006

todayy... wad did i do? woke up at 8am. when i slept at 2am in de morning. lol
then... i on my laptop as usual. did sum sch stuff n my blog! yeahoo. haha. now it is decent 2 b looked at.
then... bathed n got ready 2 go 2 school. was late n made rafie wait 4 me again.

met rafie at yck mrt n as we were about to exit, we saw kak lina sitting at corner. n guess wad? she was waiting 4 abg hykel. haha. so we waited 2gether. n again, de 4 of us came 2gether 2 sch.

training started abit late as abg nana came abit late. it was fun 2day. n i lost 2kg
haha.
but i gained it back i guess. ate alot durin de kenduri. n oso when we ate at far east. haha. had fun 2dae.
but again. he had 2 spoil it all.

n when i stepped into my aunt hse, my cousin abg ashik could sense my sadness.
i dunnoe y bt he can noe wadever im feeling. he is such a nice cousin. always listen 2 me n oso likes 2 talk 2 me wifout any haste.

then went home n here i am. im so sleepy.

~mielaydee~

11:59 PM

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hMm... too many questions at one shot. i dunnoe how 2 answer.

why?

i dunnoe...
maybe, i realli juz dun like you.
i dun like the way u treat me.
since long ago.
tho i hate u, i wont run away forever.
i will juz hide.

its ok if u dun understand me.
no one ever will.
juz let me be me.

~mielaydee~

12:55 AM

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