Tuesday, August 29, 2006
exams r over. wads de next step?
i got work. bt wad else?
im bored.
im tryin 2 feel happier 4 myself. when im happy, i will tink of alot of activities 2 do n i feel calm all de time. yea. so, smile mai.
but im gettin sick. i dun haf enuff sleep n rest.nor do i haf peace when im awake. i haf nitemares. n will wake up at every hour in a jolt. wads happening 2 my bodY?
nvm, smile n b myself. yes, thkx wanie. u reminded me, be myself. bcoz ppl love me when im myself. de happy cheery mai. yea.
~mielaydee~
7:18 PM
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i haf to stay strong n patient.
no matter what, i haf to b ready 2 face the facts...
i hope i can face it together wif u...
bt its not possible then...
its ok, i dont blame u.
i onli haf myself to blame...
~mielaydee~
1:39 PM
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Monday, August 28, 2006
can sumone take a knife... kill me? end my life. my life is full of guilt n mistakes...
its all my fault. im so stoopid... its all my fault...
juz leave me...
hate me...
i wanna kill myself...
~mielaydee~
11:13 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Sunday, August 27, 2006
im so so hating this. i cant take it anymore. seeing those words... so familiar... bt from a diff source. damn.
m so hating it... juz bcoz it's BIG, it can accuse me. get a lyf! i dun need it!!!
im havin a large headache now. n feelin very vexed. i need sleep. bt i cant sleep. too much to tink of. when can i ever get peace in my mind? its as if 24 hrs my brain is thinkin n my heart is reacting to every thought. i need peace n space. can i go back to when i was young? free n easy? or better, can i ever change my life situation?
no, no. dats not possible. its not like in de movies. or like in de story CLICK where he got the universal controller. GOD is testing me. i noe i haf 2 accept it. bt sorry, i gotta complain. i need enlightenment...
i noe, the best solution now to me obviously is.... suicide. bt no no. its a no no. bt its so tempting.
im so tempted to juz end my lyf. bt no no. gosh gosh. all im blogging abt is all the thoughts dat r racing thru my mind... gosh. salvation?
im so sleepy. kill me in my sleep then.
~mielaydee~
10:37 PM
::::mielaydee::::
y m i always stuck in any situation? im like forever falling in holes deeper n deeper n no matter where i go, im always lost n stuck n can nvr find a way out?
y is my fate this way? always in a lot of big problems wif no way out? gosh i cant this life anymore! its so damn blardyyy hard. y must he do this to me? can he live in this modern world? i juz dun understand him!!! yes i agree n admit dat sum of de thgs i do r wrong... bt most r not. so y cant i do it????
gosh... im so confused, lost n stuck dat i reali feel like goin sumwhere n juz b alone till i rot n die. pls, push me away from this world!!!
~mielaydee~
1:28 AM
::::mielaydee::::
Friday, August 25, 2006
i miss u...
i miss u...
i miss u...
y does my heart miss u...?
y does my heart yearn for u...?
y does my heart beat for u...?
i miss u...
~mielaydee~
10:15 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Thursday, August 24, 2006
after abt i duno 4 ages... i finally stepped my foot at town 4 window shopping purposes... haha!
ok, woke up early this morning, went to the sch library to study 4 computing maths. which in de end i failed since, it is too late n no info abt maths could b digested n understood in my brain...n so i gave up. met yan n maliki in de lib, thereafter they went to mac while i proceeded to north canteen to meet hairini.
along the way, met wif aniza n we talked 4 awhile b4 she left me to go to town!!! yelah, da abes exams per... k then met hairini, had lunch n then went 4 de exam. haha. as expected, i didnt do well la. duh~
then thereafter i proceeded to the mrt stn. thinkin of goin 2 work. then met shahrul. he was wating 4 fadhil to go out. so i said bye. went to the platform. then met khai n aameer! haha. then they said they were waiting 4 elfi to go out. so i decided to follow them. turned out, aamer n khai were waiting 4 fadhil, elfi n shahrul to go out. so i followed them to.... TOWN.
went to this hardcore camper/outdoorS shop. wow. it was so full of camping gear, mountaineering gears, hiking gear n so on. then while waiting 4 khai to get wad he wanted, fadhil n shahrul bought choc. haha. me n aameer took sum. well, aameer ate most of my part dat i stole from shahrul. lucky didnt eat of my fingers skali. i tot he would bite sum part bt in de end he ate up all! so took another bar from shahrul n in de end i ate a lil onli. haha.
then they all went to bras basah market. look thru instrument shops. haha. elfi n me started bullshitting abt makin a band. n elfi purposely tryin 2 make shahrul angry by sayin he duno where 2 put shahrul, mayb back up drummer. haha! mai n elf de vocalist. khai n meer on strings n dhil on drums. hahaha!
then they all went to eat at this halal chinese restaurant. i didnt eat since i was still full from north's food. so juz had a drink. haha. n the glutton aameer sat in front of me n ate ever so gluttonly... hahaha. ate chicken rice... haha.
thereafter i left for work. n came late. act blur n juz clocked in. hahaha. then met this new agent named taufiq. haha. (taufik batisah lah konon) haha. he was frenly la. a new found fren...
ok, so i wrap up today's entry... haha!
~mielaydee~
11:02 PM
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Wednesday, August 23, 2006
i dont think i will ever need a guy in my life.
coz i tink it doesnt matter. wif or wifout a guy... it is still de same. i duno y im thinkin of this at this moment. when im actualie revising in the sch's library... haha! bt it juz came across my mind. i realised i dun need a guy 2 tell me he loves me. bt i need a fren to tell me they love me n need me by their side. n i miss shafina, nadiah n hairini the most...
i miss sharifah aka sarah. i miss rodhiah!!! where r u my lovely gurl? i miss u so. i miss cupcake, saleha... where haf u gone? its been 2 yrs since u last contact me!!! i miss raihan of S6, my air syndicate mate. where haf u gone too? i miss u nurul of assyafaah mosque. hw r u wif ur teaching job? i miss sulaiha of S6, my west syndicate mate. i miss u my gurlfrenz!!!
i miss ilan too. i miss brandon. i miss saiful. i miss roy. i miss syafiq. i miss mohnish. i miss danial. i miss irsyad. i miss khairul anwar. i miss fazdli. i miss u, fayyadh my fren. i miss ashri. k, i miss kholid 4 wadever god noes wad. i miss u too idris. i miss ahmad syafiq prev from riverside. now in which ite i duno. i miss u amir hamzah. n i miss u, hazhim. i miss u my guy frenz!!!
come to think of it, i haf less close gurlfrenz since onli a special few stuck wimme thru my bad n great times... thks gurls. as for the guys, u guys r always in my mind. thkx 4 de frenship n great memories.
i duno y im thinkin of u people de most now at de eve of my exams. bt i juz miss u people.
i can live on my own.
i can work my arse 4 myself.
i can feed myself.
i can make myself happy.
i can smile wif my frenz.
i dun need a guy...
all i need r my frenz...
love ones forever in my life...
i need u loved ones... so stay by my side... thkx...
love u guys!
~mielaydee~
2:46 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Tuesday, August 22, 2006
my heart is broken into pieces. to pieces dat can never be put back together again. juz like when humpty dumpty fell...
pieces of me. broken... scattered everywhere... people stepping on it... him stepping on it... her stepping on it...
laughing away... enjoying their happy moments wifout realising dat they are always stepping on peices of me... killing me softly... slowly... painfully...
the paper juz now was ok. i could do it. bt a lil cock up here n there as usual...i miss me. i miss mai. i miss maizatul. i miss the fun-loving, bubbly, happy go lucky mai...
killing me softly with his words...
~mielaydee~
8:43 PM
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Monday, August 21, 2006
*screaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamssss....*
my first time taking of a poly exam. i duno y bt im scared. haha. tho i did take a paper oready. bt it was in de lecture theatre n it was kind of easyy. bt... 2mr , de day after n de day after after is gonna b core modules... oh myyy. im afraid..
worked in de morning 2day. was quite bored. coz very few calls. haha. was bored. started bcome crazyy. talked to a new found fren aunt doris. haha. very cute la. coz she told me a pain bt funny story.
last week, she was on a bus, a very crowded bus. then suddenly the bus driver pressed on de brakes n then this plump, philipino girl fell n sat on de left leg... n she went n screamed "ooowwww"! haha. funny right? bt thereafter she started to feel pain on de left leg n her right leg started to feel the same too. kesian dia... pity her...
then wad did i do?? hmm. oh yah. went to eat at fork n spoon after work. chicken rice. played puzzle bubble n won many times. wooohhoo. sore loser!!! haha. then walked home. then slept 4 a while then woke up n bathed n studied sum notes. hmm. im still feeling scared.
oh wells. gd luck 2 me.
~mielaydee~
7:38 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Sunday, August 20, 2006
Who am i
yo who am i,
nayla boss,
i keep it tight guess we got the raghav on the mike
gimme the light, against the flame,
i know i shudnt but i got to see you tonight
i pick you up around nine,
but i swear that this can't happen no more,
cos when im looking in my babies eyes
i can't bare to tell her more lies
i gotta be stronger now then i was before
but when u hold me girl its so real
im feeling things 4 u i can't feel
i noe i shouldn't stay but girl i just can't leave
this can't b right but it doesn't feel so wrong
but when i'm all alone,im thinking of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you thats on my mind (my mind)
but she's still in my life (yo)
but your the one thats stands by my side
i wanna let go but there's something that makes me hold on (tell em)
but baby this just can't go on,
and we're better off with nobody knows
i never forget we would of lasted so long
so perfect but girl its so wrong
cos i got some body waiting at home
but when you hold me girl its so real
im feeling things for you i can't feel
i know i shudn't stay but girl i just can't leave
this can't be right but it doesn't feel so wrong (so wrong)
but when im all alone (all alone)
im thinkin of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you that's on my mind but she's still in my life (my life)
but your the one that stands by my side
who-a blast er blasts who blasts you
its got a concicense like ooo
im gonna get mine you know i don't really care
but i got a soft spot for your girl right there
hate to be the mistress aint tryin to be the wife
got a hubby here so we gotta keep it tight
keep it on the hush on the low or woteva
aint no competition i could tell her to do better
girl you know i can't, there's to much to lose
its you that i want but, put yourslef in her shoes
it hurts to think if she only knew
what'd be on her mind, what she'd be going throughhhhhh
this cant b right but it doesnt feel so wrong
but when i'm all alone im thinkin of you but i'm with her
this can't be right that its you that's on my mind
but she still in my life but your the one that stands by my side
p.s. i love this song. this can't be right by 2play feat raghav n nayla boss
~mielaydee~
3:00 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Saturday, August 19, 2006
im down, utterly down.
try to make me smile, i will, insincerely...
try to make me laugh, i will, with no humour...
im down, totalli down. i dunno wad im gonna do ryt now. im juz confused n indecisive...
mylife is leading me to no specific strait direction...
is it a yes or a no?
or is it true or false?
n im starting 2 hear voices in my head... voices of customers asking 4 a pan hawaiian pizza. since i had so many hawaiian lover's order today...
sweet??? wordS?
~mielaydee~
11:11 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Friday, August 18, 2006
gosh. i was on the way home in the train sitting down. n i saw my horrible reflection at de opp window. it was so horrible! i looked horrible. wif solemn face n hollow eyes like there was no life for me... dark circles under my eyes... horrible... purely horrible. i looked so tired, wif no life n my face was angry. plain angry. i was close to tears. lucikly it didnt burst out dat much. since i was in de train...
i love my new job. i love it. haha. n emman, a junior from my sec sch is workin at de same place! met him 2dae. we were both shocked to see each other... haha
~mielaydee~
10:48 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Thursday, August 17, 2006
im so tired. hahaha.
bt i love working.
ok.
~mielaydee~
7:52 PM
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Wednesday, August 16, 2006
atlast im touching my husband after 2 days of missing him. poor him, he waits 4 me... yearning 4 my touch. resting on the floor 4 2 days... sorry dear, work disallow me to touch u. to type u... hehe. oh my hubbie lappy.
the job was great. we reali went on de real job juz now. its so fun. hehe. n u get cute customers. esp when its the opening, they juz woke up... the voice so soft n sleepy. heehee.
im so lethargic. oh wells.
happy mugging ppl. n oh, y cant we b frenz?
7:13 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Tuesday, August 15, 2006
woah. its already tuesday now. hmmms. i woke up feeling bored wid nuthin 2 do. bt im still sleepy. onli dat i cant sleep continously. i can wake up n sleep again. bt nt sleep all da way.
anway, yest had the trg 4 my new job. it was quite fun, boring oso, challenging oso. bt most imptly, it was damn cold there! haha. i was shivering cold. luckily met sonia n sonia showed us where the rented jackets are at. whoohoo. thkx sonia. she's so sweet la. no matter wad elfi sayS! bluek.
gonna haf trg again 2day bt evening shift. yest was morning. 2dae is evening at 6. gonna go out earlier coz its too boring to stay at home. mayb to sch n study abit or wad... then i tink the 3rd trg day is 2mr... n we gonna pair up wif a senior n learn from them how 2 do de job. ahaha. cant wait 4 de practical. de theory is quite boring if u r doin it on an empty stomach. haha!
then after work yest, i went to the MCG room onli 2 find hairi n khai singing so badly wif this mic n amplifier which i dunoe who they stole from. no wonder it was raining yesT! haha. bt cute la. coz they kept on disturbing shahrul abt haz. singing one song after another. as in after one line, another line. not even half a song! haha.
then dcided to go home bt then i went down wdls. tot of goin to my aunt's home at commonwealth coz my mum's there. bt when i called at 5pm, she said no need come, she's gonna go home soon. bt then, in de end, she reached home at 9pm. mite as well i go there siiiaaaa. haiyaa. coz i miss my aunt n uncle. not my notti cousin, abg erzan. bluek.
walked arnd de bazaar. met sum old frenz. then walked to my old workplace n met my ex colleague. since she was abt to knock off, we went off together. after chit chatting wif sum of the people too.took de bus. talked to a stranger. reached home. felt angry. n angry n angry.
then talked on de phone. then slept. woke up. talked on de phone again. slept. woke up again. then slept then finally woke up now.haiiyaz.
letting go is never easy. esp when its already too deep
~mielaydee~
9:04 AM
::::mielaydee::::
Monday, August 14, 2006
ok, so i woke up wif a big big headache on sunday morning. bt still, i woke up n was determined to go to my religious class. to make up for alot of loopholes i made. n so went off for my religious class. late. bt hey, my teacher havent started yet. n so first subject. n the teacher was a relief teacher since my form teacher had juz given birth. n the relief teacher spoke like the MRT. ok, then b4 she moved on to the next subject, she suddenly kept quiet n read the book herself. so, i laid my head on my bag n fell asleep.
awoken juz when she wanted to start the next subject. ok n then after finishing the topic for dat subject, she fell silent again. n we r all waiting 4 her to let us go 4 recess. she let us out late. while waiting, i took out my hp n listened to the mp3. n i fell asleep sitting down on my chair! haha. n so, realising, i then changed position n laid my head on my bag.n when i woke up, i realise the room was empty! @#%%#! haha
ok then next teacher was the fun teacher. i nvr sleep during her class. i like the way she teaches. haha. n she's very caring. while asking us to do our work, she can even chat wimme abt where i bought my watch n all other stuffs ah. nt the first time tho. ok then ended sch, waited 4 mum to finish her lecture at the same mosque n then followed her to go buy sum stuff n went home.
oh ya, in de afternoon i watched the lousiest soccer match i haf ever seen in my life before ah. losing not the main thing. bt the strategy n the way the match was played was quite bad la. hissshhh...
change back, change
~mielaydee~
12:16 AM
::::mielaydee::::
Sunday, August 13, 2006
im such in a happy mood now. becoz i fell asleep feeling happy tho tired this morning. haha. k, let me update u readers.
spent the whole morning at home helpin mum n all. then i took my own sweet time getting ready 2 afiq's house. onli to find out dat the BONS n ham r meeting at 5pm. n yan n hairi r reachin at 5.30pm. so, nvm since BONS cant wait, i agreed to meet yan n hairi instead. nk rokok jgk. bluek. haha. k, so, in de end i was still damn late ah. n they reached damn earlier than i expected. 5.20pm. i juz went out of de shower by then! so, i met them at wdls at 5.50pm. i noe i noe, im sori im late.
rushed to afiq's place. BONS, ham n sum tarian gurls were already there. n marni of coz. they were karaoke-ing. so i joined in. quite fun ahh. damn nice. then, watched s'pore idol while eating 4 awhile. watched de production video... then karaoke abit n at least doa selamat 4 aishax... wow... im so envious of her!!! she's so lucky to get in SPF. wow... best of luck 2 her... gd luck aishax!
then went off from afiq's home wif BONS, ham, haz, yan n An kecik. then suddenly all of them dun wanna go home n wanted to lepak. idea 4 a place, had to b wdls. since yan bought standard ticket to wdls. ok so, we all tot of goin sumwhere in wdls to take pics. haz was sooo up n enthu!! hehe. she's so sweet la.. i like her alot. An kecik n i juz click well. haha. wif the "king" n de "diam la". haha. "pondan la kau! diam la!" n so we walked n decided on this park in front of CP. ok so, we took damn lots of pics wif so many diff poses! haha. damn fun.
pity yan who was so sleepy bt yet, were forced by us nt to go home yet. n so, in de end he went off first n i sent him to the interchanged la... bt then, too bad. all his buses are gone n he got no bus home. haha. n i felt bad. damn bad. bt come to think of it now, quite funny ah bcoz we had too much fun takin pics till we 4got to think abt de bus time. so, in de end, we met again wif de BONS n ham. haz went home first in a taxi. then we sent off yan for a taxi n i took taxi home too since i was damn tired. haha. reached home at 12 plus. bathed n then slept. n woke up at 6 plus for my religious class. n now, im tired. haha. n sleepy. bt im happy. spending time wif the BONS n ham last nite. i miss the BONS. hehe. n i miss camwhoring in a group!!! mwaaah! love u guys!!!
p.s: BONS means Brothers Of North
~mielaydee~
2:02 PM
::::mielaydee::::
Friday, August 11, 2006
gosh, im still tired 2day. gonna haf silat trg 2mr morning... but i dunoe whether to go onot... still deciding... gonna haf dinner at afiq's place in de evening 2mr... will b tiring... im olready so tired. n i guess i dun haf much mood nowadays...
went for a job interview wif elly at toa payoh juz now. n we got it! yeayy! thkx 2 elfi. thkx elf!!! thkx alot. haiiz. i miss khai, my fren. i miss talkin to him. i miss spending time wif him. i miss khai. i miss pusaka seni. i miss everyone in my life. esp myself. i miss myself before i went in poly.
im confused abt myself. im juz not myself anymore. i realise i haf changed. bt i cant find my old self. i duno y i cant. i need sumone to rescue me. but... i guess i onli haf myself to b rescued... onli god can help me now. i hope my days will b better soon. bcoz i cant take it living in a life where im unhappy n always wifout mood. i guess i chose my path wrongly. right from de time my parents went for umrah. n esp recently...
i may look so strong n happy outside... bt im so fragile inside now. im breaking down every second of my life. im crying every time... im bleeding all this while... yes i am bleeding... onli i myself noe how i m inside. no life in me anymore... wads happening to me??? no one can explain to me till i find the answer myself...
~mielaydee~
6:37 PM
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Thursday, August 10, 2006
oryte, so, i changed my blog skin!!! jeng jeng jeng!!! taadaaa! ok, so i tink i love this skin alot. since it is an ADIDAS skin. i love Adidas. its my fav brand.
ok, so i duno y, bt im tired again. tho i slept 4 a loooong time in the MCG room this afternoon. im still very sleepy n tired. ok then. adios ppl.
~mielaydee~
10:19 PM
::::mielaydee::::
k, i dunoe y im blogging early in de morning, i tink i juz haf de feeling to blog.haha. duno y.
k,k. im getting confused every single second. or split seconds. worst. haha. haiz. n i didnt manage to go 4 de haircut since mummy made me go home b4 7pm but i still reached arnd 20mins late. hehe. n azmi asked me out too which i couldnt make it. sorry azmi. mummy spoilt it all. bt its ok. it was nice staying at home at nite. haha.
k, how m i suppose to plan the events for my day 2day? im confused. hmmm. yamaha? honda? smrt?
~mielaydee~
7:25 AM
::::mielaydee::::
Wednesday, August 09, 2006
gosh. im tired. again. k, im always complaining im tired. n yes, i am tired!!! haha. n today is a holidayy. i get to slack. but, i still wanna go out. drop by at my grandma's hse n then to yishun to haf a hair cut i guess. shld i? haha. still deciding. i miss my cute fringe. sumone said i look sweeter wif curly hair. veri unique bt maggi. haha. nvm, i prefer strait fringe. not messy.
had my last presentation for the semester yesterday. wasnt very happy wif it. bt all is done. wad else can i say? kill myself? not worth it ah. coz i dun wanna die a virgin. let me get married first 4 an hour, then i will kill myself aite? haha. after dat went to esplanade. the plan was to find sumone. i was on a mission. but damn, there were so many people dat i almost cried giving up searching 4 him. lucky there were my 2 brothers there 4 me. tellin me dat if he ever realli wanted to meet me, he shld gif me a specific location. true enuff. ok, so since it was too crowded, we couldnt find our other frenz. so we juz had to wait 4 the fireworks display. it was so beautiful. i recorded a lil part of it. it lasted 4 10mins.
after it ended, the place was covered up in thick smoke... imagine... the amount of gunpowder they used juz 4 10 mins of fireworks display!? ok, so since there sooo many people, too crowded, we ended up holding each other, fearing we lose each other. i noe i lack altitude. dats y. haha. at de bridge, we were like grinding each other man.! gosh. it was disgusting mann. i hateeee hateeee to brush wif people!!! no matter i noe them or not, i hateee hatee hatteeee to brush. esp when u r sweating! yuckky. bt it was a nice experience 4 me.
i remembered a year ago, being attached on the day of 8aug... went to marina since they had the exhibitions n all. went to lau pasat to eat... n gosh, i wore the same outer top. lucky onli the outer top la. bt then again, im a whole new person now. i was different last year. n last nite, i went, being single... haiiz. i miss being attached. k, i miss him. i guess... oh well, anyway its not the time yet. n it was fated i didnt manage to find him last nite...
ohk, so today will b a boring day 4 me. nvm, i tink i will go 4 dat haircut. weeheee!
aku gila, im crazy, wo siao char bo
~mielaydee~
10:28 AM
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Sunday, August 06, 2006
gosh, im so tired today. one whole week of no rest! everyday r late nite days... sat is packed. sunday too. gosh gosh. woke up at 7 this morning. washed up n all. went over to shahidah's house since hers is so near mine n then we can go together to the wedding place.
reached there, ate abit then started our work to give out the door gifts. so tired the whole day. bt njoyed myself. will upload pics asap when shahidah passes it to me. oh ya, liyana, eliana, shahidah n me were there. wawa n kak faezah were there too. since it was wawa's cousin's wedding. wawa, fyza, kak faezah n one other gurl danced for the wedding. was unexpected to meet kak faezah there itself. didnt noe she still danced for cheng san...
haiiz. ku sedar siapa diriku di sisimu...
~mielaydee~
7:39 PM
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Saturday, August 05, 2006
this life has no logic... i oso dunoe y i tink so. im juz confused now. haha. haiz...
i wish i could get my life back. my old mai back. the cheerful happy go lucky mai back. i want my life back. god, pls gif my life back... please... i beg u...
lies, lies and more lies. going deeper, nearing the grave...
~mielaydee~
2:01 PM
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Thursday, August 03, 2006
went for tarian trg yest. wow. it was so tiring but yet fun n great to do.it felt great down there dancing. challenged mentally n physically. hehe. great man. thkx wawa 4 giving me a chance. so most prolly, im gonna stay. thkx 2 all who encouraged me to join tarian like dya, eli, nana n bedah. thkx u all 4 guiding me yest n to mas, fiza n shaf 4 helping. haiyah, thkx 2 all the gurls lah! haha.
i feel damn tired today. gosh. woke up late 7.30am this morning bt i was suppose 2 meet my fren 8am at yishun. haha. but in de end my fren was de late one. then we walked over to our fren's home. ate, drank and played PS2. hehe. i lost badly. bt nvm. i long time nvr play game mahhh... haha. then went back 2 sch n now havin e-tutorial doing nothing. oh ya, i got C for my ICA for 1209. one of my core modules. a html website module. its 50% n another 50% comes from my written paper. C!!! not bad 4 a stupid gerl like me who nvr studies. haha! lol. im stupid... hehehe.
~mielaydee~
3:36 PM
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Wednesday, August 02, 2006
dull. life is dull. since exams round the corner. less of goin to school. n im so damn sleepy now. waiting 4 the other grp members to reach the library. god, i need sleep man.. i reali do!!! been too many projects to finish up. stress n depression arnd de corner.
who said jc n poly had difference? its no difference altogether. haha! im so tired. n scared to face my first poly semestral exam... onli god can help me in maths n java man... haiiz.
went 4 drama trg last nite. it was great. i missed doin drama trgs as a family of Pusaka Seni. i miss all of u. n i love all of u. mwaah mwaah mwaah. hehe.
~mielaydee~
10:23 AM
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